I need to get some things off my mind. I think a lot and I think deeply. Which is good, yet also bad. (Mostly good). I am a teenage girl so I believe inherently built into my emotions is a strong desire to feel loved. Specifically by a beautiful boy who can't help but flirt with me. And that hasn't really ever happened for me. I mean it has a little bit here and there but never the way I imagine. I have felt alone and like something is wrong with me. But listen up because I am going to give some advice. Most of you are thinking this gal has never even had a boyfriend so what does she know, but just listen will ya?
This is the time to try new things, see the world, meet people, and just LIVE. So quit worrying. Quit wondering. Quit stressing. Find your passion. Discover something you love deeply. Something you think about, dream about, and talk about. Pursue that passion. Then find someone who has a passion as well. That is a love that will last. But don't do it out of order. Don't think so much about boys and love that you lose your chance to achieve all you dream of. Take the opportunities that come to you and love them. Bad or good. Maybe one day when you are selling artwork in a flea market and completely stressing over whether or not you will make enough money to pay rent you will meet a boy who sees your passion and loves it. Maybe he will love YOU. And maybe he can't help but flirt with you. Suddenly all your teenage dreams will come true. But how would you ever know if you didn't spend time doing what you love. People like people who care. So don't pretend you don't want to do things in life. JUST DO THEM.
Maybe I just ranted and partially lectured myself but sometimes that is true. In Anne Sexton's version of Red Riding Hood when she speaks so powerfully on deceivers in society, she openly admits she is one of them. So maybe the most intelligent people in life are the ones who have been through the hard times. Let that be a lesson to us all.
Goodnight, friends.
xo
Jennifer
